Gifts come in all shapes and sizes. In 2025 we received a gift from God, We named him Enoch. We found out God had blessed us with our fourth pregnancy in June and he was supposed to be due in March. Little did we know that he would come in October, after being only about 19 weeks gestation. He was born without life, but not without love. My wife labored for about 6 hours and finally birthed our 2.5 oz baby boy. He was so tiny. Our hearts were filled with sorrow. My wife and I both see Enoch as a gift from God, even though it is a gift we did not want taken from us. Over the past few days we have been expressing our gratefulness to God for all his blessings. I am thankful God saw fit to leave my wife with me. That her body is healing from this postpartum. We are thankful for our other children and the joy they bring. We understand that God is still good and even though we didn’t get our prayers answered the way we wanted them, God still loves us and is seeking our best.

I found it odd that I have been going through the book of James for the last month and God has used his word to help me realize his goodness. James says that Every perfect Gift is from above, this gift he is referring to in context is actually the trial of our faith. While we don’t often think of a stillbirth as a gift from God, the truth is that everything that God allows us to go through can be seen as a gift. His purpose is to allow the trial so that our faith in him will be more perfect. The gift isn’t the trial, but the deeper faith that comes after the trial. The gift isn’t the grief; it is the understanding that God is there to comfort us. He is always the same; He is always faithful.

On October 7th God allowed a trial. but God has been preparing us for this moment for months and probably even years. The sorrow is real, the pain is hard, but I can see God’s hand of goodness in so many events leading up to this day, I can see his grace during this time, and we have experienced his comfort though out our loss. We named Our son Enoch because of Genisis 5:24 “…Enoch walked with God: and he was not; for God took him.” While our hearts are heavy from our loss we know that God is seeing us through. Enoch was our little gift from God. The Bible doesn’t tell us exactly what happens to little babies when they die, but I do believe they have a special place with Jesus – suffer the little children to come unto me he once said. I know that God loves Enoch even more than we do.

James 1:17 KJV

Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.

I know that people have experienced much greater losses and deeper pains than the loss of our little boy. I know that compared to other people’s story of loss ours might seem light or trivial. But to those that have a relationship with Jesus, his grace is sufficient for the deepest pains, and I am confident that God will get us through all of the heart aches that come in the days to follow.

“There is no pit so deep, that God’s love is not deeper still.”

― Corrie Ten Boom

No matter what you are going through God can help you through, He is good and he is loving. There is no human emotion that God does not understand and there is no sorrow that God cannot redeem.

S.T.
Acts 20:24
"But none of these things move me..."